Eating disorders occur in people from all walks of life, from all ages, genders, sexual orientations, races and ethnicities.
There are three fundamental areas associated with the term:
Bulimia Nervosa the process of binging (eating large amounts of food in a relatively short space of time) and purging, the action of vomiting or use of laxatives, fasting or intense exercise to compensate for the excessive intake of food.
Binge Eating Disorder, where the person, whilst not purging, consumes copious amounts of food leading to self-loathing and shame with his or her actions and
Anorexia Nervosa, an irrational fear of gaining weight, no matter what size sufferers are, prompting them to severely reduce their caloric intake, for example, or exercise obsessively and/or abuse laxatives or diet aids. It is the most serious of the three conditions and, if left untreated, can have serious consequences. Not to put too fine a point on it, Anorexia is a life-threatening disorder.
It is entirely understandable to feel there's no hope, that you are destined, condemned even, to continually suffer from an eating disorder. It is not a chemical reaction, neither is it a genetic or cultural trend. It is a response triggered by a series of learned events that has lead you down this path. Social and cultural, biological, emotional and interpersonal factors are some of the issues generally associated with eating disorders (some of which we accept, others which we disagree) though it is more important to explore, in the time available to us, why this is happening to you as we work through the problem, utilising specific techniques to find resolution..
We understand what you are going through, your feelings of emotional pain, your sense of guilt, perhaps shame and embarrassment, disgust even. But you do not have to accept or resign yourself to any of these these feelings because first, even though you are currently experiencing them they are NOT you and secondly, help is at hand. You have come to the right place.